Tough day, Here I Come...

okay here it goes, i finally get a bloody chance to write in this blogmajig...so today is wednesday june 9,2004 and it is the day after i come back to the uk after spending 10 days at home..i swear i must have a very high level of tolerance for me to last as long as i did...so i have a pretty tough flight with turbulence and trying to sleep approximately 4 hours before i am due in to work. so starting off i get a stupid middle seat which i absolutely hate cause i get claustrophobic so i had to fight my way with the continental agents and sort of be all conceited and say i am an elite member i do not get middle seats....so finally the woman with the attitude realized that she had one in the last row and it was aisle seat..that is fine and all as long as i am not bugging the hell out of anyone else and that i can freely move on about ..you know what i mean???!!!!...so finally i get into london and make my way through immigration and boy is there a line everyone and their mother decided to go to london that particular day...so i find my bags and crawl up to the hilton hotel and check in...the woman has the nerve to tellm e that i am still at the silver level and that i am getting a smoking room...or i would have to wait for housekeeping to clean...the last thing i need is to wait around...all i want to do is shower and make my way to work...so i had held some bags with the concierge and because one of the guys forgot to place a ticket, i almost died thinking one of my bags was lost or even stolen...but luckily i told the guy just bring me what you have and i will come down and look on my way out..

so finally i get ready and a bit settled in and my way back to the concierge..
found my bag and told them i will pick it up in the evening...so i head my way into work all dazed and confused as if it was my first day...come into my desk and realize that my blackcurrant and apple squash is gone...who stole?/?...so i ask around and no one knows until the thief confesses and tells me that he has a gift for me...i can not wait to see what it is ...i have gotten word that it is my something that i will like...i am pretty sure it is soy milk,,yum...had a very late lunch typical sanwich and fruit and then go through my e-mail and do more data loading...what fun i swear...i should not be so sarcastic...i am really liking what i am doing ...it is pretty challenging and i need that for my sanity ... but sometimes there is just so much pressure that i can not take it anymore...been wanting to cry but you know what my thinking is whatever does not kill me will just make me a stronger person...so did i tell you i love blogging it is like writing to a person that is possibly sitting right in front of you but no response back...
so yesterday i been trying to leave forever it is as if deadlines has no concerns for people's well being considering my throat was itching and then i just wanted to simply sleep in a bed...or anywhere would have been okay at that point...

so i finally make it back to my hotel room at about 9 pm and ate cereal and some of a falafel.that i brought from home..on the teli they have this bollywood star show..and it was pretty cool...it was was like that show that we have in the us where they try to find a good singer..i think it is pop stars but this is bollywood version...why is it hard for indians everywhere...are people jealous or they simply dislike indians...i get the feeling it is cause sometimes are just so F*** fake...not to say other nationalities are not but i get it more from indians..ljust say what it is that you belief...whether in writing or email...but darn it just say it dont talk about behind someone ..ya know what i mean...

well i did not call my family last night as i was just so tired...talked to chirag for a bit but even then i was falling asleep..i feel really bad and i want to talk but i can not help myself..as much as i tell myself to stay awake i just can;t ...i wonder what it is ..cause i been doing this for some time now..maybe i am truly just exhausted..thanks chirag for undestanding...i know it hurts you ..but don;'t take it to heart...i will get to the bottom of this...

so this morning wow yesterday was long...i come in to the office and all i am doing is fixing defects which is fine and all ..but after a while it can get lame...and i can;t even appear doing anything else cause i can be in big SHIT
but basicallyt that was my day...seems short but it is yay long...

hoping to leave in 20 min...wish me luck

It can Only Happen 2 Me

So considering that I have set up an account on this blogspot thing a while back, this happens to be my first entry. why you may ask? i wish i only knew..it seems like my priorities tend to the change everyday..i sometime am driving on rt 1 (this highway is long as hell) and simply wonder ..where does all my time go...what am i really doing that i am always running out of time...and what i am doing that i am so exhausted at midnight ..you know i am young and full of energy and yet i always fall asleep on mr.cheeru aka my cheeru...if it was not for his understanding demeanor . i could have lost him so long ago...he has made me realize and forget all or any pain that i have ....love ya man...

this weekend (the weekend before i go back to the uk) has been quite interesting. so i got to hang out with some of my girls mamta, maya, and sherri...they are such sweethearts...we wind up going around princeton university and just shopping and had a light dinner..but the best part is that we got to talk ...i had not really talked to or seen maya in ages..and i think moments like this are much needed...just to vent and notice that everyone is going through similar experiences in life....sherri is literally a sweetheart ...i do not know her that well but as we all meet more..i amgetting to understand what kind of girl she is...definetly someone i would love to be good frineds with ,...mamta, what would i do without mamta..this girl has seen so many sides of me...and always given me her ear to listen...

this was all saturday but before that , friday igot together with my best and oldest friend krishna ...(kay2fine) ...this girl has been with me through thick andthin.and through our bondage through tazo chai we just chit chatted away and of course shopped for me...while i say ying and she says yang , i was able to buy a few things ..with her approval of course...you would not believe that it was like 4 months since i have seen her..sometimes i wonder why do we have all have to give up our past for our future...lova ya girl...

the most horrible thing happened saturday after hanging out with mamta and crew, iwas supposed to meet up kishan for coffee at the starbucks in newport area in jersey city ...yet he was unable to find it ..and the most messed up part was that my battery literally died on me..i never thought that jersey city did not have that many phone booths..i always thought it was full of them...but oh well ...i think kishan is quite pissed off at me ...and i did look in some of the landmarks he was mentioing to me..but did not see his car...i tried calling him back a few times when i got home , but to my belief he did not pick up his phone, either he had no reception, was asleep, or is just too darn pissed off at me...and the guy came down from hasbrough heights too...such tough luck i swear...

today is sunday, and the weather is really very eeky..and now i have to go to the mall to the att store so i can solve this issue with my cell phone...i never realize how dependent i am on this little gadget.....i had the weirdest dreams last night that i actually was able to get it fixed and the funny thing is i thought it was so..but then when i turn on my phone , it is still dead...it is probably just the battery ..i hope it is ..i really don;t want to waste money on a new phone that i hardly use...
i just helped mom make some of the stuff for falafals. i made the chutney and blended the khiru that we use to make the vada...yum ..i love this stuff...
you know this whole week that i have been home from the UK...i enjoyed every moment of it ..did so much went to a sweet 16 party, bbqed, saw humtum , wentto dinner with my college buddies, went to atlantic city, went to the mall, went to princeton, and now just going to chill till tomorrow...the one person i wanted to see i could not,my best friend cheeru...it is okay ..i am working on it ..trying anyway...

let me see ,i think on a whole i did eveyrthing i wanted to do...and even was able to write this blog...

till next time..